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down to earth – on keeping a journal

Most of you already know that I’ve been writing a gardening column called Down to Earth. It appears every couple of weeks or so -in print- in the East Bay/South Shore Life section of a few local newspaper-lets. When the editor has time/the inclination he – or perhaps his intern if such a creature exists – also posts them on line here (complete with headline-y titles.) Alas, some of my favorites haven’t made it to the internoodle. Might as well post them myself here.

From October 13, 2010:

Every fall I start wishing I had kept a real garden journal. By now the season always feels like it flew by and has started to blend in my memory with past years. I always wish I had written down the idea I had for the exactly perfect plant to fill the hole in my border. For the life of me, I can never remember what it was and now is the exactly perfect time to plant it. I also think it would be gratifying to look back on a log of all the work I’ve done from weeding to designing and planting, and interesting to make a note of my current favorite plant since that changes almost by the hour.

My best intentions to keep a journal predate my garden and there are probably a dozen half-blank books trampled by dust rhinos under my bed. In the last couple of years, I’ve tried using miniature notebooks that fit in my pocket for notes on the go. Most of them have gone straight through the wash. I have a sketchbook that I mean to keep open on my desk for those brilliant ideas that come to me while perusing the internet for brilliant ideas. It is usually across the room hidden under a pile of magazines. Every so often, I do remember to record purchases by taping plant labels onto its pages. I also carry a weekly engagement calendar – one of those precious little books with a pocket and elastic – and finally, in that, I’ve started to follow through.

On the 31st of December, 2009 I wrote that “27° feels warm.” Evidently, that same day I was “writing, resolving.” By New Year’s Day, I was “peevish” but I persevered, logging at least weather conditions almost daily through February. I can tell you that our epic 100-year flood fell on March 30th and four days later, I painted my shed. I heard the first cricket on May 20. My backyard border needed “more blue” by the middle of June. For five weeks starting at the end of June I noted that it was, “HOT! HOT. REALLY HOT. HOT. HOT.” Unfortunately, aside from the odd appointment or two, my entries trailed off then.

Ironically or perhaps perversely, I assigned myself the role of record keeper at work. I have made a routine of jotting a few things down – also in a weekly calendar – at the end of the day. Sometimes it’s all I can do to remember what we did that morning but I’m always glad I wracked my brain. The gardens manager and I consult past years’ calendars constantly to keep on track or to congratulate ourselves for being so far ahead.

October is one of those months – a lot like… pick any month in spring – in which our schedule gets really tight. If we couldn’t double check previous years’ bulb planting dates we might second guess having to take annuals out of the gardens (to make way for tulips) as soon as next week – usually, heartbreakingly, while they’re still blooming. We’ll have all of the tender plants moved into the greenhouse by the 15th because they’re always in by then – whether frost is forecast or not. Almost before we can finish putting the gardens to bed, we’re on to preparing for Christmas at Blithewold, at least according to past years’ calendars.

My schedule at home is much more lax. I might not take annuals out until a frost hits because I can leisurely plant tulips in those spaces right up until the ground freezes. Despite the fact that I’m less likely to regularly consult an old calendar, I know I’d still find it helpful to write down what I do when. Because, at the very least, to keep any kind of record, to write down thoughts and ideas, is a great way to keep in good touch with the garden.


Follow through

CrocusSpring (I mean late winter) is the ultimate reminder to follow through on promises. I’m not much good at that. I’m happy to start something – like a half a dozen drafts of blog posts – but not so good at following through (half a dozen drafts unfinished). Nature always fulfills her promise though even if it looks like there’s no rainy-way she’ll be able to. And every once in a while even I have it in me to keep my word. I’ve been promising for years to go back and visit friends and family in Seattle and my chosen flight flies Thursday – with me on it.

dogwood budsIn the garden, as per usual, I am also making promises. While I’m away Z will get busy installing a window in the shed (he has no problem with follow through). And that of course means that this year, as soon as I’m back, I have no excuse not to follow through and paint it. I intend to hold me to it. And I’m saying it out loud – again – in hopes that another public declaration will fortify my typically shaky resolve.

my goofy byline I have also recently made a commitment to write a column – bi-monthly at least – for a local weekly. Which is cool but so far, harder to follow through with than I thought it would be. (You guys are much easier to write to. – why is that? ) And meanwhile, perversely, I’m finding it the most difficult to keep my promise to this blog. So in honor of spring’s promise I’m renewing mine. Whether or not I actually follow through.


The uniform

While Haiti lies in ruins and orphans need kin; and the Mass. voters have chosen to be catastrophically unhelpful regarding healthcare reform, I opt to focus on my own ridonculous problems instead. Like the tiny little identity crisis I’ve been having. (Honestly, it’s just easier. But let me say, in my defense, that my $$ has gone where the need truly is.)

I used to be the kind of person who put some thought into getting dressed in the morning – I wasn’t terribly adventurous or avant-garde, just ever so slightly creative. (I wore scarves.) When I was in (art) school, I wore my charcoal handprints and paintsplatters like badges (Hello My Name Is Artiste) of devil-may-bite-me cool. Lately though, because gardening is such dirty work, and I’m not 19 anymore, I have filled my closet, thanks to Savers (that’s Value Village to you west coasties), with chinos and khakis and ugly sweaters because I don’t mind ruining those things.

I realized recently that dressing for work in clothes I hate has made me (unfashionably) lazy and invisible way before my time. I have been known to wear the same exact thing all week because I’ve gotten so out of the habit of giving a shit. I generally don’t even bother anymore with cuteness on the weekends – especially if I’m going to be blowing out my knees in this garden. My inner French-girl weeps and refuses to open the shutters.

Maybe it’s because I’m in a hurry to enjoy the last months of my thirties before my butt drops below my knees; maybe it’s because I have to wear an actual uniform at work; maybe it’s because gardening media seems suddenly infused with excessively hip hipsters like Alys Fowler, Gayle Trail and Patti Moreno The-Garden-Girl, who wear vintage scarves and have tattoos and tromp around their gardens in Jack Purcells or exquisitely expensive Hunter wellies. For whatever combination of reasons, I have become increasingly aware that I don’t like what I’m projecting. I’m not liking that I’m not looking as much like me as I used to.

The only thing I can think to do for it (aside from shopping for new “work” clothes and I’m trying to resist that impulse) is to open up my closet. And truly, since most of it, even the cute stuff, is from Savers anyway, nothing is sacred. And I wonder if stretching my creative muscle this way will make it limber in other ways. (Maybe I’ll paint again?) Meanwhile the true woes of the world worry on…

Do you wear a uniform – in or out of the garden?

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